Well hello, after a brief absence. Personal issues called me away.
I write “energiessssssss” because lately it feels I am being squeezed around the middle in a rather uncomfortable hug. I have to smile inside as I see my Higher Self holding me saying “Come ON and LET IT GO ALREADY! We got work to do, girl!”
I visited my sacred tree today and the word I received was “submit”. That was a new one and it felt commanding ~ an unusual vibe from the tree ~ so I asked for clarification. “Submit,” I heard again with the same energy. I offered thanks and went on my bike ride.
I pondered for awhile after I returned home. My insight? Gaia isn’t messing around with this process and neither should we.
Submit. Surrender. Even though I believe in Choice of course, I do not feel I have any other choice but to do just that ~ even more than I am currently. Seriously ~ SURRENDER IT ALL. Heck, I’ve even been drawn to begin playing a song I wrote in 2004 called “Surrender” which describes the very process I am doing ~ what so many of us are. I find it quite beautiful how the songs I write often end up being for me, first and foremost.
A new “tool” I have added to my Ascension Process toolkit is going back to whatever incident is most prevalent in my mind (and these are taking on a new message of urgency lately), telling the inner child, the frightened part of me, the angry part of me, etc. to “step aside” and I change the incident so that the outcome is what I would have wanted. I do what I wish I had had the ability or courage to do at the time. This doesn’t mean I am violating the free will of others. I am referring to episodes of abuse, accidents and the like where I stand up for myself, assert myself or re-do things to avoid injury. Whatever it is that is calling my attention for healing, I am honoring.
I am also changing the story as well if I feel the need. These experiences we have are just that – experiences. All outcomes are based on the stories we tell ourselves of these experiences. I had a former mind-body counselor tell me how she did this (changing the story). She retold herself a story of an unpleasant experience she simply wanted to be rid of in a way that would be to her benefit and by retelling the story to herself in a new way enough times, she actually forgot the original story. She was working with someone at the time who wrote down her original experience and the new memory she created in retelling the story. She literally forgot the original experience and the surrounding story. The mind does not know different. It can be reprogrammed. Fascinating. So now, I incorporate this as well.
When I am too tired to do the above, I simply send Love to my injured self and to all involved (a challenge indeed ~ gotta fake it to make it with that one at times but it does get easier).
I am noticing an interesting pattern taking place in those who are still deeply ingrained in societal programming. In some recent conversations, I am seeing a sudden defensive in some people that is a new behavior. When I feel the need to be defensive back, I remind myself what’s going on for all of us, take a deep breath and focus on just observing. That is what it looks like coming from the heart ~ not reacting but responding. Very important.
I recently read about people who experience severe mental illness are having a very difficult time now, their illness becoming more intense. Someone in my community, a kind, gentle Soul who struggles with schizophrenia, but who is stable due to the medication they are on, recently went more or less ballistic. No one was harmed – it was all verbal – but this individual is now in the in-patient psych unit. Stable. (I have offered information on the people in Africa who treat such diseases as a crisis of Spirit, and using purely holistic methods, have a great success rate at curing a variety of our western-defined mental illnesses. It pains my heart to know what our western system does to those with mental struggles.)
So it is pretty weird out there. Beautiful. Chaotic too. I’m very tuned inwards now ~ grounding more with Gaia. Feeling that energy too at times. Still waking up trembling all over at times as well as feeling it at times during the day, which I now Know is the Ascension Energies of Source and Gaia. It resembles anxiety for me, something I have struggled with since childhood, and there is a fear around that for me, so it takes extra effort on my part to tell myself it’s ok ~ it’s Loving Energies, nothing to fear ~ which is bringing me extra chances to heal from the anxiety demons as well as continuing to increase my Trust in self/Self.
Surrender. Trust. BELIEVE in myself. My words. KNOW this is why I am here. REMEMBER. (I’ve been saying that word to myself throughout the day for a week or two now.)
Do not let one more moment or hour or day thinking “is this really happening” enter my energy field. Time to BE DONE with that.
The time to stand fully in Who I Am is now.
If this resonates with you, bring those words into your body and allow them to permeate your being Being.
Continue to love self. Be gentle with self.
Be well all. And all will Be Well. ♥